I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears
I love the truth that this line from a Mumford & Sons song expresses. The truthfulness in the lyrics and the emotion that comes out through each of their songs is one of the many reasons why I love listening to this now trendy and popular group. They are not afraid to be raw or to sing about the questions they wrestle with, which I appreciate.
Recently I have found myself choosing this group because as I have let myself feel deeply and wrestle with things in my own life, I identify with and need to listen to music that cries out just as I too am crying out.
I am learning more and more what I feel like my call in life is (though the next step in my life is still very unclear), but as I learn I experience the fears that go along with this call. I have had to wrestle with a lot of truth about myself, where I am personally, and face the desires that I have for myself that I may need to let go of in order to follow my call *Insert fear here*
I still have a lot of decisions to make, a lot that I need to let go of and work through, but one thing that I must remember in all of this is that I must hold on to the truth. Truth of who God is and the truth of what He has called me to in this life. I definitely have faults that make me feel unworthy and I have growing fears because of the uncertainty of the future, but I am learning to rest in the fact that I am called. I have a call. I just need to get over my hill and see what I find there...
